Tuesday, December 26, 2017

I'm back!

After more than three years of hiatus, I'm reviving my blog! It took a little nudging from a colleague to put this site to good use. No, I don't intend to vent out all my feelings here. Rather, I am going to use this platform to inspire people in a world (wide web) full of negativity. Except some blog postings in the coming days or weeks. But first things first. I'd still need to recuperate to keep going.

Ah oh... Merry CHRISTmas, everyone! Cheers!

Monday, March 17, 2014

Pagpapatawad

God said, "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you." - Ephesians 4:32

Isang malaking kasinungalingan kung sasabihin kong madaling magpatawad at makalimot. Alam kong hindi ito tama ngunit hindi naman talaga madaling gawin iyon lalo na kung napakalalim ng nagawang pagkakasala sa iyo.

Sa mga oras na ito, gigil na gigil akong sigawan ang lahat ng taong nagkasala sa akin. Hindi ko malaman kung ano ang uunahin kong gawin sa'yo - kung susuntukin kita, tatadyakan kita, o sasampalin muna kita. Umiinit ang ulo ko sa tuwing naiisip ko iyon. Basta ang nais kong mangyari, mawala ka na sa landas ko at sana hindi na kita makita ulit kahit kailan.

Isipin mo naman, mababaw o malalim man, ang sakit kaya ng ginawa mo.

Pero hindi ito tama. Mali na magkubli ng galit sa sinuman. Mali na gumawa ng hindi mabuti sa kapwa. Mali na mag-isip ng hindi maganda kaninuman. At mali na hindi magpatawad sa kahit na sinong nagkasala sa iyo.

Papatawarin at papatawarin pa rin kita, kahit gaanong kababaw o kalalim ang nagawa mong pagkakasala sa akin. Ngunit humingi ka naman ng tawad sa akin. At bigyan mo ako ng sapat na panahon para rito.


Harinawa maayos na ang lahat.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

NBSB pa rin! So?

(Note: Will edit this one in the next few days...)

All my brothers are still in a relationship. My cousin got married to her long-time boyfriend last year. My other cousin and her husband got tied the knot around two years ago. Two of my college friends are so happily in love. Some of my co-workers are inspired because of their (new?) found love. And three of my high school friends feel blessed and contented with their respective partners. One of them will give birth in two months time.

And me? Still alone and part of the No-Boyfriend-since-Birth society for 20ish years - and counting.

Ever since high school, I've been praying to God that He would give me the right man in His perfect time until one day, I just stopped praying and focused myself on something else. I stopped looking for love, for a romantic relationship. And I stopped waiting for 'Mr. Right'.

Why? What's the sense of waiting if I always got 'no' in my prayers? No one even dared to court me because they said I'm too intimidating. If there's one, he wasn't serious about it. I've been patiently waiting for it for the longest time but I felt I just waited for nothing. I've wasted so much time and effort just for this one! Seriously.

Like what I've said earlier, I've been praying so hard for this one. I strictly obeyed what my parents told me: Finish college first and  get a decent work before having a boyfriend. I did everything to get a diploma, ace a great job, and be the good daughter to my Tatay and Mama.

Hold your horses. Please don't get me wrong. I am way beyond blessed and I'll be forever grateful for that. But some of my prayers are still unanswered and I'm tired of waiting. Waiting for nothing. Really.

I'm tired waiting for that 'Mr. Right'. I really am. He never came, anyway.

Maybe I should start to accept I am destined to live a single-blessedness life.

Oh well...

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Long-Kept Sentiments

Just a few thoughts that I have kept for the longest time (in bullets - and mere random):


  • Why can't you just forgive those people and forget their wrongdoings? What stops you from doing so especially when it affects a group or a friendship? It was never easy to just forgive and forget but that is NOT an excuse not to forgive the person.
  • Dead Tired. I am tired waiting for nothing. Yes, I am blessed. But married life is NOT really for me. No questions, please!
  • Trying our best to give you nothing but quality service. Not referring to work though. It has never been a joke to lead a church organization. We are not even paid to serve, you guys should know that. We're not fishing for any praises or compliments. But what we are trying to say is please bear with us. All of us are working and have responsibilities to look after. We need prayers and support from you people. For without you, we are NOTHING.
  • YES or NO. Some of my long-time prayers are not yet answered. I don't know why.
To be continued...

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Voicing Out Opinions

I never imagined myself arguing with people older than me until our meeting on August 11.

On that day, I attended our monthly assembly of one of my church organizations. During that time, we had discussed so many important matters. I won't disclose those things because it's confidential.

To cut the story short, I suddenly found myself telling them what I feel about a certain issue with people who are much older than me - straight to their faces. Yes, I'm one of the youngest members in our group. I was even surprised that I did it and I'm happy for that. It's sort of an achievement for me. Haha.

Around two years ago, I was almost in the same situation. I had this co-member who kept insisting that she was right. Deep down in my heart, I know she was wrong but what she knew (which I know was not right) prevailed in the end. What was it? Secret. From that time on, I told myself that as long as I'm on the right track, I would fight for it until the end. I mean I would tell them what I feel was right.

Anyways, back to that meeting, I felt that I should speak out or forever hold my breath. I got pissed because they made me confused. My voice got louder while reasoning so one of my friends cautioned me to lower my voice. But I kept ranting. I even came to a point where I was about to lose my respect to them, leave the meeting place, and go home. Thank God I was able to hold my temper. Someone asked me why I kept saying this and that, etc etc? Then that person admitted it was her fault and apologized for that. Good thing another person interfered and straightened things out. I love the person for that!

I liked how our meeting ended. We may have argued and all but the thing is it was still a productive one, I must say. I approached our coordinator and said sorry for the tone of my voice. Then that someone hugged me after and apologized for what she told me. I replied it's nothing personal and told her I love her. After that tiring yet productive assembly, of course we went somewhere else and had our tummies happier.


Like I've said earlier, never be afraid to voice out your thoughts/opinions especially and fight for it as long as you really feel you're right.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Pro Life. Anti RH Bill.

Take a look at our country. We’re not actually overpopulated. It’s just that we’re overcrowded. People keep coming in Manila for they thought their financial status would be elevated. Well, that’s one of the common misconceptions in the Philippines.

Instead of pursuing that bill, why not develop the key cities in our country to generate more jobs? Why not instill responsible parenthood and discipline to every Filipino? And why not prioritize other important things like strengthening our education system, promote tourism, cultivate our natural resources, and the like?

I do understand the point or argument of pro RH Bill. But please, respect mine.

Pro life. Anti RH Bill.

God bless us all.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Sarap at Hirap ng Pag-ibig na Wagas

This is the poem I wrote two years ago. Enjoy! :)



Sabi nila, masarap magmahal ng wagas
Isa siya sa mga dahilan kung bakit ganado kang mag-aral
Nagiging inspirado kang gumawa ng mga takdang-aralin
At ipasa ang lahat ng mga pagsusuri para matuwa siya sa’yo.

Sabi nila, masarap magmahal ng wagas
Kung ikaw ay nalulungot o nalulumbay
Nariyan siya upang ikaw ay pasiyahin
At palakasin ang loob mo na harapin ang mga problema.

Sabi pa nila, masarap magmahal
Mayroon kang dahilan para maging masaya
Lagi niyang sasambitin ang mga katagang “mahal kita”
Na may kasama pang bulaklak at tsokolate.

Ngunit sabi nila, masakit din ang magmahal ng wagas
Maaaring dumating ang panahon na sasaktan niya ang damdamin mo
Magsawa siya na makita o makasama ka
At higit sa lahat, iwanan ka niyang lumuluha dahil wala na siya.

Oo, masakit talaga magmahal ng wagas
Sa taong hindi marunong magpahalga ng pagmamahal mo
Na handa mong gawin ang lahat-lahat para sa pag-ibig
At tanggapin ang nakaraan mo kahit ano pa iyon.

Masakit talaga magmahal ng wagas
Lalo na kung alam ng taong iyon
Na may espesyal kang nararamdaman sa kanya
Ngunit binabalewala at sinasaktan ka niya sa huli.

Basta isa lang ang tiyak ko
Masarap at masakit magmahal ng totoo
Nasa tao na lang kung paano siya magpapa-apekto
Sa sarap at hirap na dulot ng pagmamahal.

Kahit may dulot na sarap at hirap pa ito
Hindi pa rin titigil ang puso ko na magmahal
Kahit ilang beses pa akong masaktan at madapa
Sa huli, may magpaparamdam din nun sa akin.